Twin flames

Everyone knows about soul mates, but do you know about twin flames?



I, like Einstein and Shakyamuni Buddha, believe that there is one, collective energy/matter to which we all belong. All one. We inter-are. When we are conceived into this lifetime a bit of that energy breaks off to eventually become each and every one of our unique manifestations. This is perceived as our 'self', the 'I' with whom we identify, until it comes time to die, pass into the next manifestation and reconnect/redistribute our 'selves' among the collective energy matter that makes up all that is and all that isn't.

Some theoretical positions, such as astrology, numerology, indigo and crystal belief systems, propose that the breaking off of energy matter is more systematic than random. This results in similar traits and connections among those who are pulled from the collective together. Most people understand this on the level of the zodiac, i.e. Taurus are stubborn and love tangible luxury; Virgos are detail oriented and rigid. The ancient Tibetans had a belief that everyone one crosses paths with in a lifetime was their mother in another lifetime. This is yet another way of conceptualizing group manifestations of energy and matter. The theory of soul mates is another theory that encapsulates this belief, but is often commonly misunderstood.

Many people think that a 'soul mate' is equivalent to the love of one's life, when actually soul mates may be better considered as souls who's energy was broken off from the same piece of the collective at the same time as one's own, resulting in a separate manifestation at the same time and often in the same place as one's own, lifetime after lifetime. Soul mates come into our lives to teach us about all of the possibilities that human interaction and connection can entail. You know when you have had an interaction with a soul mate because you have a sense of knowing that person before, even when you first meet them, and you may feel inexplicably attracted to the soul mate, like you just have to go with the flow of energy between the 2 of you. Often soul mates end up wrestling with each other on an energetic level and they frequently do NOT end up as life long partners. But you will be sure to have grown and developed awareness because of an interaction with a soul mate, positive or negative. We all have multiple soul mates and usually interact with at least a few during each lifetime as a way to work out our karma and head toward our twin flame in preparation for re-union. But do not despair! Despite the deep experience of loss and transformation that soul mates can bring into your human conscious experience it is work that we all must do. You must feel whole in yourself, before your twin flame will emerge. Soul mates and our experiences with them allow us the opportunity to see what is stopping us from being whole in ourselves.

As you might be able to intuit based on the words I chose to describe our emergence from the collective energetic pot, we all have to give something up in order to get to where we are. We must be split from the collective in order to be manifest as the individual. Every exit is an entrance to new experiences. One big way that we individuate is through gender. For me to be a woman in this lifetime, I had to split from my collective male energy. One of my soul mates will have split from his female energy to become a male in this lifetime*. This person is my twin flame. Our energies will eventually merge together just prior to transcendence beyond the human realm, which will result in a full reunion into the collective and generally symbolizes the end of manifestation in the human realm. Unlike soul mates, twin flames often collide only in the final lifetime as humans and they may not feel as familiar as soul mates. Twin flames will experience a mutual sense of eternal and transcendent love. They typically recognize one another following at least one 'dark night' in which they have faced and resolved their deepest traumas and karmic debts. This darkness is necessary, as being present with your twin flame requires clearance of all obstacles to true union.

Sometimes, twin flames cross paths and the time is not right. One may be engaged in a relationship with a soul mate. One might not be ready to tolerate the intense mirroring that being present with a twin flame entails. Additionally, being in relationship with one's twin flame is a gateway to direct relationship with the divine energy that is mother to us all. Sometimes we think we are ready for that and connect with our twin flame only to realize that we still have spiritual blockages to resolve. It is not uncommon for twin flames to temporarily separate in the physical realm until the remaining individual blockages are cleared. Even in this separation, twin flames will feel a strong psychic connection that seems magical and does not fade with time. This cycle usually occurs within one lifetime. For once twin flames find each other, they generally find a way to unite before passing, as their next passing is destined to be into a realm beyond the human. The energetic charge between twin flames is loving, not obsessional or needy. This is a profound and inexplicable connection that brings joy and non-dependent comfort, regardless of physical presence or not. The interactions between twin flames are blatantly honest and may be painful, but not composed of trickery or game playing. Your twin flame will not cheat you, lie to you or otherwise deceive you, though they may hurt you through soul baring honesty and penetration into your deepest recesses where no one else has been allowed. If this happens, it is simply a means to clear any residual inner conflict that must be cleared within the individual before true union is possible. Despite the challenges, the overall feeling of twin flame union is peaceful and comforting, wholeness.

Twin flames together will travel through fire and emerge with a union that transcends logic, ego, time and space. You'll both know it when it emerges. You'll know it ten years later when it has ceased to subside. The whole is always greater then the sum of the parts and when we commune with our twin flame we can truly forge our path to divine, collective consciousness.



*NOTE: Our energetic gender does not always match our biological gender. This theory is about union of opposites in the most etheric sense and in no way indicates that same sex or transgendered couples have not found their twin flames with a person of the same gender. The universe works in mysterious ways and the feelings we get in interaction with others are ultimately much more valuable than something as temporary and superficial as biological gender assignment.

That sucked.

Hypnosis

To get to where you want to go you have to know what it is that you want. You also have to have a realistic and simple plan and belief in your own talents and abilities to achieve your desires. If you're filled with doubt and indecision or if you live your life without a goal, then you're at the mercy of circumstances. However, circumstances don't offer much mercy, direction or help toward the fulfillment of desires or planning and achieving your life on purpose.

Decide what you want, believe in yourself, put the necessary effort into your plans and follow them through persistently. This is the simple formula for success and attainment. When you control your thoughts, you control your emotions. Your emotions are forces of unimaginable power.

-Dr. Rick Collingwood

Branch, Ape and Twig

I had a dream that I had 3 daughters, named Branch, Ape and Twig. Branch was the oldest daughter and I thought her name was so beautiful and strong. I was proud of her. Twig was a baby and I didn't like her name as much, but seem to have felt that there were no other names available. It was as though all the names in the world had run out and I was forced to choose Twig. Strangely, I didn't seem to have an opinion either way on the middle child, Ape.

A few moments later I was standing in a grassy yard. There was a rectangular swimming pool filled with stuffed animals. The stuffed animals were overflowing at one end of the pool, as though to mimic a wave crashing on the beach. I thought it was peculiar that the pool was filled with toys and I thought to myself, "I am having lots of thoughts about childish things". I wasn't sure it was meant to be, but I felt that the pool made for an interesting and strangely beautiful piece of conceptual art. I filed the idea away in my memory, in case there came a time that I might need an idea for a piece of interesting and strange conceptual art.

Then there was a lady in front of me, or perhaps I was the lady and there was a small audience in front of me. It may have been only me in the audience. I am unsure. Maybe both. To one side, there was a series of 3 doors. They were miniature, child-sized and made of a rich, dark, heavy wood. To the other side, there was one other doorway. I cannot remember exactly what it looked like, but my memory says that it was more modern, plasticky and it might have been open, or with no actual door at all. This doorway was arched, whereas the series of 3 were standard rectangles. It was larger than the other 3 and it was white/bright. The woman (or myself?) was saying:

"You can choose the three or the one, but if you choose the one, you cannot choose the three".

She pointed to the doors as she spoke. I had a feeling that I wanted to choose the 3, but that I was expected to choose the 1. I contemplated the solidity of the 3 and thought, "why would I choose one, when I could choose three? " Surely there was three times as much exploration, option and space with the set of 3 doors than there would be with only one. But I knew everyone (who exactly 'everyone' is, I'm unsure) wanted me to choose the one. I felt pressured to choose against what I really wanted.

I don't remember making a choice before I awoke. If I did, I know it was the three.

children of the sun, begin to wake

What direction is human evolution moving in?
I've been speaking to others about becoming strong lately. Everyone wants to be strong. Yet culturally we are moving away from our bodies and toward our networks. Two people drew me pictures about becoming strong this week. One was a lion tearing apart and eating a human body. He lay on his belly and chomped on a bloodless leg while various body parts were strewn around him. The second was a robot shooting another robot with a gun. The robot shooting the gun was a female robot, with breasts.


It is difficult work to become strong. It hurts to do strong things like make conscious decisions, wait, and take responsibility for our tiny lives. Are you attending to the things that will help you be strong? Not just as an individual, but as a member of a culture that needs all the conscious strength it can get.

“All our progress is an unfolding. Trust the instinct to the end, though you can render no reason” - Ralph Waldo Emerson



Last night in the middle of typing a text message that I was unsure whether or not I wanted to send, I was interrupted by someone else coming into the room. I looked away from my phone and spoke to my visitor for a minute. When I looked back at my phone, the word TRUST had somehow been inserted into the middle of the unfinished text. I sent it.

Earlier in the evening I had participated in a Samhain ritual where I banished the deceptive energies of multiple specific people and the deceptive union that had summoned and embodied those energies in my life. I threw my ring in the fire and watched it resist the heat, draw back from the change it was asked to make. Soon it took on the flames and glowed hot pink and magenta with heat. After a moment of rage it surrendered, sagging with exhaustion from the birthing of a new manifestation. And then it was gone, dissipated. No ash, no ember, just gone- exactly as I had asked it to be. Be gone. I called out to the others around me, "it's gone", not sure what to do. No one answered. The one who might have answered was gone with it.

I called in the spirit of trust to fill the vacant space created in me by these deceptions and to guide me on my bold, new, deception- free journey. I called out trust's name and she came to me in a very symbolic place: a text message.

Love and Magic both take practice. My finger wears no ring, waiting.

today's reading: What was true is no longer true

"My energy is the energy of the universe. My power is mine." -A. Crowley


The 8 of cups arises during periods where you are tired and where there is severe emotional distress. It carries with it an urgent warning to attend to whatever is blocking your energy, and to try to create open channels to get things moving again.

One area that will often be indicated by the appearance of this card is the sort of relationship in which you consistently give too much, and receive very little back in return. Remember, we deserve to receive from others exactly what we are prepared to give to ourselves. So if we give ourselves scant attention, why should anybody else do any more for us? But, on the other hand, if we treat ourselves with love and respect, then we have every right to expect that from those around us.

There is a general sense of dissatisfaction arising from a realization that the things we have fought and struggled to attain may not be as satisfying as we had hoped they would be. It is time to ask yourself what you can do to bring a deeper satisfaction and joy to your life beyond the obvious pursuit of material satisfactions and/or physical enjoyments.

Nothing is permanent in life. Sooner or later, everything slips away...or we slip away from it. The eight of Cups stands for those moments when we realize, once and for all, that the past is gone. What was true is no longer true. Become more aware of the physical, mental or emotional sacrifices that are or will become involved in the present situation. There may exist a cause more worthy of your efforts and sacrifice. You need to heal. Release old patterns, especially those that have dominated thoughts and emotions. Don't be afraid to leave the past behind. There's plenty more in the world to see. Take a break and make a change.

The eight of cups is the decline of efforts made toward the attainment of something desired due to disappointment in the results received thus far. Whether you see it or not, you're being given the opportunity to rise above your habitual or instinctive response patterns and if you make a conscious attempt to do so, they will lose their grip on you.

You're on the true path, so try not to regret the sacrifices of your decision.

deuces!

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* just realized that anthem 3 references anthem 1! How's that for full circle?

today's reading

Position 1: The Universe: myself in synthesis with the world

Position 2: The most crucial aspect of the Current Environment:
Interference- a prison, too much attention to detail at the expense of principle and more important points; great ease in some things balanced by equal disorder in others. Wisdom applied to small and unworthy objects.

Position 3: The obstacle:
The 3 of Wands- Virtue, realization of hope, success of the struggle, pride, wealth, power, arrogance and conceit.

Position 4: The goal:
The Empress- beauty, happiness pleasure, success, luxury and sometimes dissipation.

Position 5: The foundation of the current environment:
Art- Union of opposites, moderation and self-restraint, realization, action for either good or evil.

Position 6: The past:
Futility- In character untrustworthy. Vacillation. Unstable effort. Journey, probably over land. Partial success, yielding when victory is within grasp, as if the last reserves of strength were used up. Inclination to lose when on the point of gaining through not continuing the effort. Love of abundance, fascinated by display, given to compliment, affronts and insolences, and to detect and spy on another. Inclined to betray confidences, not always intentional.

Position 7: The immediate future:
The Hermit- Divine inspiration; Wisdom sought for and attained from above.

Position 8: The future environment:
Completion- Settlement. Arrangement completed. Perfected work. A completion of a thing built up with trouble and labor. Rest after labor. Subtlety, cleverness, mirth, beauty, success in completion. Reasoning faculty, conclusions drawn from previous knowledge. Unreadiness, unreliable and unsteady, through over-anxiety and hurriedness of action. Graceful in manner. At times insecure.

Position 9: The influence of Society:
The Magus- skill, wisdom, adaptation. Craft, cunning, and sometimes occult wisdom.

Position 10: The nature of the challenge that confronts me:
Ruin- Ruin. Death. Failure. Disaster. Undisciplined warring force, complete disruption and failure. Ruin of all plans andprojects. Disdain, insolence and impertinence, yet mirth and jolly therewith, Loving to overthrow the happiness of others, a repeater of things, given to much unprofitable speech, and of many words, yet clever, acute and eloquent.

Position 11: The outcome:
Debauch- Lying, deceipt, illusion, deception. Error, slight success, but not enough energy to retain it. Possible victory, but neutralized by the supineness of the person. Illusionary success. Deception in the moment of apparent victory. Lying, error, promises unfulfilled. Drunkenness, wrath, vanity, lust, fornication, violence against women. Selfish dissipation. Deception in love and friendship. Often success gained, but not followed up.

tacitus tolero

Y died today. My first patient death.
RIP Yannick, you are now free.