28 February 2011

bad bitch takeover

Kelis is the baddest bitch. She's been ridin' the beat like a bicycle since long before Gaga, Rhianna, or Nikki. The world would be so much different/better if bad bitches like Kelis were in charge.  I hope we get to witness a bad bitch take back of this horribly unbalanced and confused culture in the very near future.  The Boss Bitch Revolution of 2011.  2012?  Los Angeles is the best city for a bad bitch takeover to originate in. Paris and Miami would be allies.  Not to mention Rome or Rio.  The problem is that we have to stop fighting from within, organize with the fire of Kali and the fascination of Medusa deep inside us all and get bossy.  Give 'em a taste, they'll want some more. This is difficult when so many of us still have fights within ourselves, not to mention within our relationships.

Yes, magic happens when the genders unite.  Unfortunately, that seems next level for our culture at this point. It's impossible for over 50% of our adult society to live in harmony with the opposite gender on a personal level.  If only one gender can hold the power it must be the women, the creators and nurturers of life.  Looking around, I see that so many archetypal relationships are out of whack.  We are disorganized- in thought, in attachment, in communication. The earth needs to get knocked around a little, kicked off it's axis and determine a new center that we all spin around.  I would really like for bitches like Kelis to be at that center. Diamonds on her neck, diamonds on her grill.

*NOTE: Rorscach cards framed on the wall in Caught Out video.  Shout out to Visual Understanding!

20 February 2011

I want to be with those who know secret things or else alone.

(art by the luminous spirit, Paul Laffoley)

Take your practiced powers and stretch them out
until they span the chasm between two contradictions...

For the god wants to know himself in you.
-Rainer Maria Rilk

Surrender yourself to death, return what was loaned to you.
Give up your pleasures, your pains. Give up your friends, your lovers. Give up your family, your past.
Surrender what you hate, what you desire. You will know nothingness.
It is the only reality.
You will no longer want to possess.
Possession is the ultimate pain.

Transition is all around us. All that you count on will change. It is an amazing blessing to watch the lotus unfurl and amazingly painful to watch the petals decay back into the mud. These concepts are not so hard to grasp, yet it still feels like a shot to the heart when we lose things we thought we would always have and gain things we didn't even know we were missing. We are unfortunate to live in a culture that buries so many fundamental elements of reality- anger, death, evil, intimacy, altruism. Here in modern America, we are not allowed to see these things, instead they must be hidden under our masks and we are trained to be terrified when they ooze out into the light.

Something must die, if anything is to live. Every decision involves excluding the non-chosen options. I believe that energy and matter are finite, cycling back into themselves at all times. When we let go we aren't really letting go, per se, but more likely performing some energetic alchemy, some psychomagic. Transformation is undoubtedly a healthier, more connected process than banishment, repetition or repression.

We all resonate in each moment with a specific vibration that is only attractive to some. Sometimes our vibrations are out of tune and the result is that we don't resonate with any other energies or beings that actually compliment us. Defeated, some of us recognize our mistakes, take the time to clue into our true selves and try again with a clearer heart. Others among us have never been in tune, born with the karmic debt of learning to expect dissonance in relationship with others instead of harmony. These people walk the gray line between blessing and curse and may feel destined to be either alone or surrounded with people that block them from cultivating the very areas of their soul that need to be watered most. The possibility for each path lies within each one of us. In the eyes of God, we are all equal.

12 February 2011

The Squaring of the Circle

mandalas by the amazing Emma Kunz

05 February 2011


"Self-deception remains the most difficult deception. The tricks that work on others count for nothing in that well-lit back alley where one keeps assignations with oneself. If we do not respect ourselves, we are forced to despise those who have so few resources as to consort with us, so little perception as to remain blind to our fatal weaknesses. We are peculiarly in thrall to everyone we see, curiously determined to live out – since our self-image is untenable – their false notion of us. We flatter ourselves by thinking this compulsion to please others an attractive trait: a gist for imaginative empathy, evidence of our willingness to give. At the mercy of those we cannot but hold in contempt, we play roles doomed to failure before they are begun."
-Joan Didion

"The daimon throws us down, makes us traitors to our ideals and cherished convictions- traitors to the selves we thought we were."
-C.G. Jung

Evil does exist in the world.
Some people consciously choose to participate in thoughts, words and actions that are meant to damage others (and ultimately damage themselves, too). I have previously believed that we are all doing the best we can, that any manifestation of evil was purely consequential of our mortal collective efforts on the path of enlightenment. This is not true. The devil exists and he is here on earth, among us all.

Yes, we all have a choice. We can walk a path of pseudo-innocence, running from the reality of our dual human natures, or we can walk a path where our shadows are accepted and honored as the dark forces of destruction that seeth inside of us. When we stand in the brightest light, our shadows are the darkest they have ever been. Without destruction, there is no creation. The way in which we interact with our own dark energy impacts the energetic outcome of all the shadow we face in this dangerous world of modern human interaction.

The path to self-respect is a long and confusing one that takes an extraordinary amount of individual inner work to achieve in modern society. We have a choice to walk that difficult path or not, a choice to add merit to the universe or to take it away.
After our deaths, the memories of our actions in the minds of others is our only legacy.
What do you want your legacy to consist of?